BLAH

I have had a rough day today. I just feel plain old blah. I wanted to eat everything in sight, at least I managed to not go too crazy but it didn't help my feelings none. I can't say was depressed but I just feel off. Hormonal or something. I feel like I need a good cry and a nice long trip in a hot tub. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Self Motivation 101

Today as I was on my walk I caught myself thinking about how far I really have to go on this journey. I kept thinking that even is I lose x this week I still have y to go...I began to get discouraged. I literally had to tell my self to stop! While gaining weight was a lot easier, faster and took much less brain effort; I did not get here over night. It will take time. It wont happen suddenly it is a journey and one that I am taking bit b bit and day by day. I had to give my self a little pep talk. Remind myself that I am making progress. Sometimes I feel really by myself in all this and others I remember that I do have friends and family that are there for me. I just need the patience to endure it all. I think I will go browse ModCloth for some more motivation!

Magic #4

I weighed in this morning. I have lost 4 pounds this week!! I am so happy. Can't you just see my happy dance? Step by step and day by day. I will get there!

Britt and I walked a little over 2.5 miles this morning. We have been doing good with our walks. I mapped out a better route though since they are working on the main road out here. I want to avoid walking around construction zones. Call me silly but being plowed by a bull dozer is not my idea of fun.

Until tomorrow my friends, have a blessed day!

Comme Si Comme Ca

I am not sure I did well today. I came in way under my calories. I did go walking although not as long as I wanted to or needed to. I also have been doing good with my water and all that too. So I guess all in all it was good just not the best.

Today, I made up the menu for the week and got the grocery list made up. I am trying all new recipes this week so this should be fun!

Now for some much needed sleep!

Feel the Burn!

Wow! Today has been a long day. Mark is out of town working so it is just me and Britt. Today we went to the zoo and the park. We walked and walked and walked some more. Then we came home and watched The Devil Wears Prada. After resting a bit we went and walked around Walmart for about an hour and got some socks, and something we can use to take a picnic lunch to the park. I have got my walk in today!! I can feel the burn in my legs but it is oddly a good feeling. We will be walking tomorrow at the Galleria and doing some dream shopping. Looking for some ideas for goal clothes and all that. Just overall being girly.

I am doing well food wise as well. Amazing. I don't feel deprived or anything. Britt has really been a big help to me.I don't think I could do this as well without her.

I have been trying a few different fruit and herb combos in my water. I like that a lot. Today was grapefruit and fresh mint. Mark really liked the cucumber slices and fresh mint yesterday. It makes for a nice and easy change in my water. I have found it helps to get those 8 glasses in this way.

Well, gotta get some rest for tomorrows walk-a-thon!

Consistency

I would like to start today by apologizing to anyone who might actually be reading this. I know most days will be very boring. My life is not the most exciting. However, I do need to write everyday. My problem has always been consistency. I lack it. In fact the only thing I am really consistent with is being inconsistent. I am hoping that if I force myself everyday to blog and face the events of my day it will keep me focused on staying on track. I don't want to repeat the patterns of the past. The 5 days good then blow it on the weekend and so forth. I need to make lasting changes. At this point I am not yet ready to publicly admit my starting weight but I will admit that I am the largest I have ever been in my entire life. I know that my self worth is not based on my external appearance and I want to state that is not my motivation. It is about health. I have a laundry list of family history of weight related health issues. I cannot guarantee a lot of things in regards to my health but I can lessen my chances of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems and a lot of other issues. I am also an influence in my daughter's life and I don't want her repeating my patterns as well. I just don't want people thinking I have some idea that my life will be better or that I will be a better person by getting my weight off. I would like to feel better about my appearance and all and I don't think that is an unhealthy desire.

Ok, I have blabbed enough for this morning. Now to face the day!

Latte FTW!

Another good day. I tried a new strat with my salad for dinner the last couple of days. I spread everything thing out on a plate instead of a bowl and really worked to make my salad look pretty as well as be healthy. I ate it slower and it filled me up so it helped. I also discovered that I can make myself a Chai Latte or Cappuccino Latte for a tad over 40 calories! That alone makes me happy. I am actually looking forward to weighing on Monday. I really hope that it reflects my efforts.

I have set a few mini goals for myself but my endgame goal is of course "The Little Black Dress" I want to walk in a room in that famous quintessential garment that will say "I've done it!" Gotta keep my mind on the prize! I refuse to be 40 AND fat! Stay focused!

Birthday

I am happy to report that despite today being birthday day, I came in just under my total calorie allowance! We went with cupcakes instead of a full cake so I was able to eat one and walk away! I really am proud of myself. I just hope that my efforts pay off. We shall see on Monday when I weigh again.

Thank you friends for helping me on this. I appreciate the love and support! It sure helps to not feel so alone on my journey.

I am Strong

I got up and walked this morning. To be honest I wanted to stay in bed. I ache everywhere from yesterday's walk but I knew I needed to do it. When I was walking last spring it hurt at first but it got better. So I am holding on to that. I will push through.

I will weigh in on Monday and post my progress. Hopefully it will be great news! I know I could use a good report to help me stay on target.

I got some motivational wallpapers for my ipod. I plan to switch them out every few days to help me out. Todays was "I am strong" and you know what, I am strong. I can do this. With God's help and the support of my family and friends, I can do this!

Day 1

So far today has gone well. I have stayed within my calories, I got in my water, veggies and dairy and I walked. The hardest thing today was measuring out the 2 T of Ranch dressing but once I mixed into my salad I realized that 2 T was really enough. Shocking, I know! Also, getting used to the increase in water intake has been fun. I have made more than my share if trips to the powder room today!

I am glad today has been good. I can usually take a day or so but it is staying consistent that is my problem. I will have to take this one day at a time and hopefully blogging will help. I have a long way to go but I need to think of it in smaller bits or else I will be overwhelmed. Whatever works right?

A Fresh Start

Ok, I have decided to make a blog. I don't imagine that many will read this but it is more for me anyhow. I need to be accountable for my weight loss goals. If, long the way, I motivate someone else, then all the better. I will try to write in my blog daily and update my weight loss weekly. I don't think I will post my beginning weight at first though. I just don't feel that brave yet but maybe later on down the road.

Here's to a new me!