Consistency

I would like to start today by apologizing to anyone who might actually be reading this. I know most days will be very boring. My life is not the most exciting. However, I do need to write everyday. My problem has always been consistency. I lack it. In fact the only thing I am really consistent with is being inconsistent. I am hoping that if I force myself everyday to blog and face the events of my day it will keep me focused on staying on track. I don't want to repeat the patterns of the past. The 5 days good then blow it on the weekend and so forth. I need to make lasting changes. At this point I am not yet ready to publicly admit my starting weight but I will admit that I am the largest I have ever been in my entire life. I know that my self worth is not based on my external appearance and I want to state that is not my motivation. It is about health. I have a laundry list of family history of weight related health issues. I cannot guarantee a lot of things in regards to my health but I can lessen my chances of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems and a lot of other issues. I am also an influence in my daughter's life and I don't want her repeating my patterns as well. I just don't want people thinking I have some idea that my life will be better or that I will be a better person by getting my weight off. I would like to feel better about my appearance and all and I don't think that is an unhealthy desire.

Ok, I have blabbed enough for this morning. Now to face the day!