All over the place

I am finding the real world to be a bit of a problem. The fact is that in a perfect world I would be skinny. I would have time to do what I need to get done. I would have my pantry full of things I should have and they would all taste wonderful. However, I do not live in a perfect world. I am having another rough week. 2 of my days will be spent at the VA hospital taking care of my parents. Yesterday I left my house before 7 and didn't get home till almost 6. I then had to go to the store to get stuff to make dinner. I was exhausted. I did not walk. Tomorrow will be more of the same. I am hoping to get my walk in today but the sky seems to be looming over me just daring me to step outside so that it can dump a sea of rain upon my head. I am a person of habit. My routine is important to me and when things throw it off, I am unsettled. Yet, a sane and normal person would look at my life and see nothing but chaos. Trust me, there is a pattern to my chaos and I need it to be that. If only things would go as I want them to all the time. Not like that would ever happen but i could wish for it. I know I could go to my mom's and use the Wii but I feel so exposed. I am tense. I need things to be on my terms in my yard so to be speak. All of these things make this journey a wee bit harder. I am of course trying to change these things but one thing at a time.