Today's question is "Will I be defeated or will I defeat this?"
Someone pointed out that I sounded defeated in my last post. To be honest, I felt it. I knew this would be a journey. I knew there would be up and downs. I just feel like right now there are more downs than ups. I don't want to be defeated. I want to be the victor.
I was flipping through the channels yesterday and some whack job infomercial guy caught my attention. Well, more like something he said. He basically said that eating is very much the same as balancing a check book. When you overeat you bankrupt your body and your mind. This for some reason really struck me. The cycle of overeating/bad food choices plus lack of activity has left me physically and mentally bankrupt. I have cheated myself of opportunities. I have chiseled away at my self-esteem and self-worth. I am working to breaking this cycle.

Today I am not defeated! Everyday is a new day to defeat this mess I have created. One day at time. One day I will look back on these moments and know that it was because of these times that I made it.